Sunday, September 20, 2009
Lonely, Party of One
So, it's been a weird weekend for me. Actually, it's been a weird few months. Ever since AFMF and I broke up, I've felt incredibly lonely. Like, lonelier than I've ever felt in my entire life. The strange thing is that before AFMF I don't remember ever feeling lonely - I loved being alone, my solitude, my independence. All I needed was me and my crafts. However, after spending so much time with him day in and day out, now I just want to be with someone all the time. It's like he showed me how nice it was to be with someone (even if we were doing nothing) and even though our relationship wasn't perfect, at least we weren't lonely. I try and keep busy, but it's not the same. I feel really unsettled and anxious. Even movies aren't helping; I don't know what to do. I know this is a downer post, but it's how I'm feeling right now. I'm sad. I'm floundering. And I don't know how to pull myself out. Sigh.