Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Should I Send Out a Search Party?

My BFF (the male version, that is) has gone missing. Well, not literally missing, I'm sure he's fine, he's just somehow, for whatever reason, stopped talking to me. If this were just a normal person with whom I communicated sporadically, this wouldn't be any big deal. But this is my BFF. The person I normally talk to at least 1,000 times a day (slight exaggeration, but not by much). I feel empty, like this huge hole is inside me. I don't know how to clear out all this excess crap in my head that he's usually able to deconstruct. It's odd not having that release. We used to like to joke around that we didn't really need to have a "regular" relationship with someone, because we had that comraderie in each other (the daily recap, the "how was your day" type debriefing). It's not the first time he's done this (disappear, that is), but it is surprising. We didn't fight or anything and I suppose he could just be busy traveling, but, man. I hate this. I hate not having someone to joke with and laugh with an even have him chastise me for all my stupid decisions. I miss him.

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