Tuesday, April 27, 2010
My Meter is Broken
I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me (well, aside from the obvious side of crazy sauce). Lately it seems like I could give a crap less about, well, just about anything. I'm not depressed (and for that I'd like to give a shout out to my anti-depressants), I'm not sick, I'm not even bored; I'm just meh. Life seems to be pretty mundane and while that might be normal and predictable, it's also cause for concern when my goal is to be making big changes soon (hypothetically speaking, of course). Why am I unable to get motivated to, say, clean my apartment, or go through my closets, or finish projects I started a million years ago? What's the problem here? Is there another sort of pill I can take for motivation? I'm really going to need something (anything) to happen soon or I might drift off into a don't-give-a-shit coma. Sleep seems to be the only activity I enjoy (and, yes, I realize it sounds like I'm depressed, but I'm not) because I've been having amazing dreams (like ones where I'm dating a combination of Bradley Cooper and Matthew Morrison - yum. Perhaps now you can see why I enjoy my sleep). Suggestions?