OK, so I ran into an ex the other day and here's the thing - we didn't have some hot, torrid love affair that would ruin us forever back in the day. We just hung out. When I first moved to town, we had fun. He was cute and we had similar hobbies and we had a good time. No big deal.
Of course, there was always this lingering question of which "team" he played for
(and, let's face it, we're talking about me here, so there's always the very real possibility that I was, once again, drawn into caring about a gay guy. I'm kinda famous for it).
Although he assured me he liked
both guys and gals, the tattoo on his hip
(which was a guy's name) always kinda threw me off. Try as I may, I could never feel all that comfortable that I was really who
(read: what) he was looking for. Which is fine. Again, it wasn't like we were all that serious to begin with. No big deal, right?
Still, after seeing him again last week, I got curious and did some Facebook cyber-stalking
(don't judge me - I *may* or *may not* stalk my exes regularly - wait, what? Did I say that out loud? Again, no judgments, please) and discovered that, sure enough, he's in a relationship. Has been, actually, for the past year.
Ouch. And, of course, he's in this serious relationship WITH A GUY. Now, I knowingly went into this with my eyes wide open. I knew it was a possibility
(and I was attracted to him, which almost always guarantees the guy swings both ways) that he could end up with a guy, that he'd been with guys in the past, and I'd like to think it doesn't matter. Which it
doesn't. So, why am I left feeling weird about this? Why am I still thinking about it, writing it, obsessing about it?
Wait, what? Me? Obsess? Doesn't sound like me....WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY BRAIN!?!? GAH. Obviously I need to un-friend him stat, right? I mean, that's the only logical thing to do. Remove the ability to cyber-stalk and my obsession, er, curiosity will disappear....right? Right? We're agreed? Fine, then. Consider him un-friended (wow, I'm so tough). 
Of course, there was always this lingering question of which "team" he played for (and, let's face it, we're talking about me here, so there's always the very real possibility that I was, once again, drawn into caring about a gay guy. I'm kinda famous for it).
Although he assured me he liked both guys and gals, the tattoo on his hip (which was a guy's name) always kinda threw me off. Try as I may, I could never feel all that comfortable that I was really who (read: what) he was looking for. Which is fine. Again, it wasn't like we were all that serious to begin with. No big deal, right?
Still, after seeing him again last week, I got curious and did some Facebook cyber-stalking (don't judge me - I *may* or *may not* stalk my exes regularly - wait, what? Did I say that out loud? Again, no judgments, please) and discovered that, sure enough, he's in a relationship. Has been, actually, for the past year. Ouch. And, of course, he's in this serious relationship WITH A GUY. Now, I knowingly went into this with my eyes wide open. I knew it was a possibility (and I was attracted to him, which almost always guarantees the guy swings both ways) that he could end up with a guy, that he'd been with guys in the past, and I'd like to think it doesn't matter. Which it doesn't. So, why am I left feeling weird about this? Why am I still thinking about it, writing it, obsessing about it? Wait, what? Me? Obsess? Doesn't sound like me....WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY BRAIN!?!? GAH. Obviously I need to un-friend him stat, right? I mean, that's the only logical thing to do. Remove the ability to cyber-stalk and my obsession, er, curiosity will disappear....right? Right? We're agreed? Fine, then. Consider him un-friended (wow, I'm so tough). 
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