Wednesday, October 28, 2009
According to You
There's a free song on iTunes this week called, "According to You." I must admit that I'm a little bit in love with it, despite it kind of making me cry every time I hear it. Behold, some of the lyrics: According to you I’m stupid, I’m useless, I can’t do anything right According to you I’m difficult, hard to please, forever changing my mind. I’m a mess in a dress, can’t show up on time, even if it would save my life. According to you. According to you. But according to him I’m beautiful, incredible, he can’t get me out of his head. According to him I’m funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don’t feel like stopping it, so baby tell me what I got to lose. He’s into me for everything I’m not, according to you. The reason it makes me cry? Because unfortunately the mean part of the song is how M made me feel most of the time (especially at the end) and despite my best efforts, I'm traumatized by his treatment of me. The reason I love it? Because it's hopeful and shows me what could be...oh, and that pretty much anyone else on earth (even AFMF) would treat me better than M. I know, I should just stop talking about it...but it helps to get it out.