While I realize this is a super exciting time in our lives (being as we're about to move into our own place and everything), I have to admit that right now all I feel is stress.
When do we get the key? When can we start moving in? What do we bring? How do we make it go as smoothly as possible? So many questions, so many things unable to be answered right now.
My brain never stops worrying about it either. I'm having trouble sleeping. I'm unfocused. I can't concentrate. I even got a speeding ticket the other day because I wasn't paying attention. I'm a mess!
I wish I could snap my fingers and everything could be put away where we could find it and all of this horrible stress could be eliminated. As it is, I don't feel like I'm going to make it another week with all this jumbled up inside.
The worst part is that there are so many things I need to be doing. So many things I SHOULD be doing. But, I'm frozen by the enormous task ahead of me. I have no idea how to start. How to make it better. How to be as organized as possible. That was never my strong suit and now four years of things that have been boxed up are going to haunt me.
I even picked my feet so badly there's a huge gaping hole and now I can barely walk. To add insult to injury, I'm probably going to get blood poisoning. I'M. A. WHITE. HOT. MESS. When do I send up my white flag? HELP!