While I realize we've had this conversation a million times, I really need to do something about my ex problem. Yesterday within the span of ten minutes I received text messages from not one, not two, but three ex-boyfriends. One telling me he missed me. One telling me his wife had a baby. The last telling me he wished I was there. Oh, and did I mention that ALL THREE ARE MARRIED?!?!!?
Yeah, I think I'm done here. As much as I cared about them and enjoy being friends, I don't think it's good for me to continue to keep in contact with them any longer. It doesn't enhance my life, it only annoys me. The one who had a baby was the last one I fully gave my heart to and, truth be told, I wanted to have his baby. Hearing he had one with the girl he was with right before and immediately after me doesn't make me happy, it makes me cry. I don't want to hear about his happy life. I don't want to hear how he's moved on.
My heart is already full of holes and landmines; the last thing I should be doing is continuing to talk to the people who contributed to making it that way. I'm not great about ignoring people, but I'm going to have to do better....for my own peace of mind.
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